Thursday, October 24, 2013

Mr. Linden's Library

Harris Burdick was a man who walked into a publishing company with multiple intriguing photographs. Each of these photographs came with a story, but Harris Burdick never returned with the stories after he left his images at the publishing company. Famous authors throughout history have written their own stories to go with each of these pictures. these images were very interesting to me, so I wrote a short story to go with my favorite picture. The title of this image is Mr. Linden's library. I hope you enjoy.

Mr. Linden’s Library

At the end of the cul-de-sac on Brighton Street, sat an enormous Victorian mansion.  However this wasn’t just any mansion; stories and myths have swirled around it for decades, and for god reason.  The windows were always shut with thick, black curtains, draped over them.  Dense, viridian vines climbed up the walls of the house.  Cobwebs and spiders entangled themselves in the small dark corners of the window sill.  The two large French doors never opened and no one ever came out of the house. I fact, the house had been still for nearly 40 years. 

               Rumor has it, a man named Porter Linden lived in that house.  Supposedly he moved there after he returned from deployment during World War II.  Suffering from a severe case of PTSD, Mr. Linden moved far away from his friends and family, entered the Victorian mansion, shut the curtains, and was never seen or heard from again.

               Only one person remembered seeing Porter Linden move in that fateful day in November; Mr. Nigel Lawrence, and he had a reputation as a good man.  The entire town looked up to him, however he always seemed as if he was hiding something.  He would sit in his big plush chair resting by the fireplace mantel in his quaint little cottage.  Three doors down from the Linden mansion, was the home of Laurence’s granddaughter.  Rebel was her name, and she lived up to her reputation. 

               On November 13th, the anniversary of Mr. Linden’s departure from the neighborhood 40 years prior, little Rebel Lawrence sat on her granddad’s lap,  and fantasized about the mysteries and wonder that awaited the person who dared enter the house.  She had been warned never to go there, but one day curiosity got the best of her and she slipped out of house after her grandfather went to sleep, and was careful not to let the gate creek on the way out of the yard.  She ran down the sidewalk, her blond ringlets bobbing up and down on her shoulders, and her stubby little legs making stride across the pavement.  After passing endless houses for what seemed like the greater part of an hour, Rebel stood silent at the precipice of the mansion that had tempted her curiosity so many times before. 

               Silence engulfed her as she opened the front door.  Sound itself seemed to drown out upon her entrance into the foyer, and it felt as if she wouldn’t be able to breath.  Panicking Rebel thought about running back out into the street, when suddenly a violin wafted through the silence, and Rebel had air in lungs again.

               Now that her fears were at bay, Rebel continued to explore the Mansion.  There was a room with a giant marble dome, the walls of which were littered with brightly colored paintings, seemingly from many different ages.  Intrigued by the beauty, Rebel moved forward, and the sound of the violin started playing just as she was about to touch one of the paintings.  Drawn to its eerie sound, Rebel continued to walk through the corridor leading away from the domed room, her ballet flats making a faint tapping sound on the mahogany floor.  Turning down a new hallway, she looked into every room she passed, each becoming more magnificent.  At the end of the hallway stood two sturdy doors.  Upon opening the doors, Rebel found herself surrounded by books of every shape and size, coating every shelf, table and empty space in the room.  Rebel had never seen so many books.  Suddenly the violin stopped.  Butterflies in Rebel’s stomach seemed to have taken flight to the back of her throat, and she let out a small cough of exasperation.  A shadow slowly crept towards her!  It was a small man with a long white beard, and he identified himself as the caretaker of the Linden’s Library.  Everything about him appeared to be ancient except the young quality of his light blue eyes.  .  Rebel peered into them though she could find no deeper understanding.  His eyes were like the ocean during a storm, their mysteries hidden beneath a stormy façade.  The man didn’t smile, his face remained solemn and still, but his eyes seemed to smile out at her. 

After what seemed like an eternity, he questioned

“And who might you be?” 

“My name is Rebel”… she replied

When he did not offer any new information, Rebel continued by saying

“I live down the street.  I’m sorry for…” 

Her pleas were interrupted.

“What do you want miss?”

“I’m sorry sir, I just wanted to know the truth about this house”

“Young lady, there is a reason why I haven’t left this house for over 40 years.  My life is dangerous to anyone who knows its secrets.” 

The man shut is eyes briefly, and took a deep breath that sounded more like a sigh.  Rebel broke the silence.

“Sir, I need to know”.

“If you must know so badly then… here” the man replied with a smile.

He threw her a tiny red diary and it landed in front of her feet with a thud. 

               “I must warn you, if you read that diary, bad things will happen to you.  Your life may be threatened, and might come to an end as you know it!”

This intrigued Rebel, though she showed no sign on her face of how badly she wanted to read the diary.  When the old man turned and walked away, she slowly bent down and picked up the diary.  He spoke again…

               “Little girl, I must warn you once more that this curiosity will be the end of you.  I do not wish to see you get hurt, but if you do not heed my warning, I fear I shall find you a very grave person on the morrow.” 

Rebel pretended not to hear him as she ran out of the mansion with the book.  The mansion was creepy, but how could anything hurt her if she was safe at her grandfather’s cottage? 

               Rebel didn’t speak to her grandfather when she arrived home, but ran straight up stairs to read the book in her room.  She opened the cover of the book and inscribed in tiny calligraphy was the phrase “it’s already too late.”

She pretended not to be creped out, though she closed the book rapidly and decided she would revisit it later.  Afraid to close her eyes, Rebel walked downstairs to the kitchen to make herself feel better with a midnight snack.  She looked out the kitchen window and had the feeling that she was not alone.  And right she was! Outside the window sat three men, all dressed in black, their faces covered. The only visible body parts were their young, blue eyes that gazed into the kitchen, watching rebel’s every move.

               Rebel’s night eventually ended and the sun rose over the hill in the distance. The sense of daytime brought peace to rebel, and gave her the confidence to return to the house of Mr. Linden and ask him all of the questions she had been asking herself in the late hours of the night. However, when she got there, there was no violin playing. In fact there wasn’t a sound at all. The house was as quiet as ever. Rebel walked up to the door and pushed, but the heavy, glass doors did not budge. Giving up on her inquiries, Rebel reversed to return to her house when she noticed three men walking toward her. Completely covered in black, they marched with military stature, completely uniform to each other.  Rebel’s heart began to beat rapidly in her chest, as the men seemed to lunge at her.  One yanked her hands behind her back, and the other pulled a bag over her head while one tied her feet.  After being forced into a box of some sort Rebel stopped fighting against them, and completely succumbed to their power, completely vulnerable and alone

She watched her capturers every move, as one of the men reached down into a tiny knapsack holding a small vile of liquid. The fluid inside the capsule was red like freshly drawn blood. The man pressed a needle into the capsule and knelt down my Rebel’s head. As he punctured the needle into the side of her neck, he began to whisper. As he spoke, Rebel thought his voice was peculiarly familiar.

               “You were warned, and you did not obey. Now your soul belongs to me. Life as you know it has changed forever”

As he spoke, the man squeezed the deep red liquid into her body. The other two men watched eagerly as blood began to seep down her neck and pool onto the sidewalk. Rebel’s eyelids were all of a sudden heavy, as if cinderblocks had been placed on top of them, forcing them shut. The old man’s peculiar voice sent chills through her body as he breathed a final statement.

“Good Bye Rebel”

As he spoke those words, Rebel’s body had completely reacted to the drugs and she became nonresponsive and motionless, draped across the sidewalk on quiet Brighton Street.

Time ticked on and Rebel would never again be a part of the world she has been accustomed to.  After she had dozed off, the men scooped her up and dragged her inside the infamous mansion. The drugs eventually wore off and Rebel awoke, once again lying on the chilling marble floor of Mr. Linden’s library. However, the library was not the same as she had once left it. Instead of millions of books surrounding her, rebel was being watched by millions of pairs of young, blue eyes staring at her from the shelves.

The sound of the eerie violin hummed in the background as the library doors were suddenly whisked open and the three masked men marched toward her. The third man turned and was immediately absorbed by the book shelves and became another pair of eyes staring at her.  The other two men continued to walk towards her until they came to an abrupt halt inches from where her body laid. One man began to speak.

“You are no longer apart of the real world. This is the price you pay for disobedience.”

Rebel immediately recognized the voice as Mr. Linden’s.

“Every book in this library was once blank. Today, every last one is inscribed with a story, each ending the same way. Your little red diary was the last empty book.”

With that, Mr. Linden turned and walked away. The red diary sat in her lap and invited Rebel to read its contents. The sole remaining man stood before her, silently watching as she picked up the book and started to read. Page after page, rebel read the story of her life inscribed onto the pages. A rush of memories flooded her mind and she had become a giant mess of emotions by the time she reached the last page. Tears rolled down her cheeks as she read,

“Rebel opened the book and saw the words ‘it is already too late’ “

This time, it really was too late. Following the last phrase were the words,

“THE END”

A sudden realization overcame Rebel as she recognized that his life ended the second she opened that book. She shuts the book and looks up at the lone man watching her. Her eyes begged him for some sort of reconciliation, but there would be none. The man looked down at Rebel and spoke with such an evil tone that her blood curled.

“Silly, naïve, little girl. You were just like your mother. You succumbed to my power. You sat on my knee and let me fill your head with fascinating stories about a haunted mansion. You fell right into my trap. Now I hold your soul forever, trapped inside this house, engraved onto the pages of that book.”

With a chuckle, the man removed his mask. Nigel Lawrence stood before his granddaughter and delighted in her shock and disappointment. He chuckle grew into a cackle as he pivoted on his heels and pranced out the door. Rebel’s body started to vanish as she was absorbed by the library. Forever, Rebel would rest there, on the marble floor, where she had first found that little diary. Forever, Rebel would lie in Mr. Linden’s library, trapped in the mansion that sits at the end of Brighton Street.





Sunday, October 20, 2013

Contact Me!

Hey Readers,
     I would love to converse with you all about any of the topics I write about, or any topics that you are interested in. If you have questions, comments, or you just want to talk about life, don't hesitate to email me at msandwithcrader@gmail.com! I hope to hear from you all soon!
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Political Courage- Governor Chris Christie

With the recent government  shutdown, I started thinking about politicians that act on how they feel verses how their party wants them to act. I am very interested in politics and I find politicians  who practice courage in their line of work to be very admirable. When I think about politicians who have shown courage in their line of work, Governor of New Jersey, Chris Christie comes to mind. There are countless times throughout his political career Christie has demonstrated courage, starting with his election process. New Jersey is a fairly liberal state and Christie is a conservative politician. However, despite the adversity he encounters as he ran for governor, he pushed through and was eventually elected. One admirable quality about Christie is that he does what he thinks is right for his state and he will fight for it until it becomes a reality. Even if it means separating from his political party, Christie is willing to face whatever repercussions for his actions coming from his political party or other people because he has demonstrated through us work that what he thinks to be right for the majority of his state will always come first and he will put it political career on the line for it.  This started with his ideal of conversion politics when he first became governor. At the start, his conservative ideals were not welcomed by the liberal state, but he persevered, and implemented economic programs that stimulated New Jersey’s economy. Then, when hurricane sandy hit, Christie was prepared and ready to be there for his state. Where his political party did not appreciate the accolades that Christie gave Obama in order to get aid for the people who had lost their homes, Christie did so any way. He went against his party wishes in order to do what is right. In a political system where political parties are at odds and bind politicians to certain beliefs, however, Christie is not afraid to break those binds to do what is right, even if it means putting his political career on the line. Another example of this is the fact that Christie recently passed the law that allowed gay marriage in New Jersey. Where gay marriage is not a republican ideal, Christie decided that it would be the right thing for his state and decided to pass the law. While republicans may not appreciate it, Christie made the decisions out of what he felt was right and he doesn’t mind facing repercussions from is colleagues. Christie is a role model for courage because he does what is right and deals with the response from people who don’t agree with him. However, his actions speak for themselves because they always seem to work out and benefit New Jersey. Christie pushes the limits of politics and the binds of a political party. To Christie, New Jersey is his political party that shapes his decisions in office. 

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Hiking the Camino



               Hiking the Camino was a book that seriously made me change the way I looked at my faith, life, and attitude in general. Looking back on my life I realize that I have had to deal with a lot of pain and difficulty. I never really thought much of it until I went to my sophomore retreat and I really met God for the first time. After that point I thought that God would make me feel painless all the time. Shortly after the retreat I came to the harsh reality that faith and a relationship with God was not all cookies and rainbows. I didn’t understand why all of the love I felt at retreats couldn’t stay with me as a ventured out into my daily struggles. I often found myself to be angry at God and I resented him for allowing these things to happen in my life.  I would pray and ask God for them to go away, but they never did.

So, I opened the book and I started reading. Honestly, I thought it was going to be pointless and just about another priest’s perfect relationship with God. I was mistaken. After Father Dave cracked a couple jokes and made me feel comfortable and engaged in his story, he would pull on my heart strings and make me reevaluate my attitude. As I was reading I felt like I could hear God yelling at me to stop thinking that following him was easy. As I read the book, I realized that if following Jesus was easy, everyone would do it. When I have those moments of peace when I am on retreats, it is god reassuring me that he is with me during those times of pain that I must return to. Instead of asking god to stop the pain, I need to ask god to walk with me. Jesus didn’t want to endure his suffering on the cross, but he did it anyway out of love for me. I need to endure my suffering and do it for Jesus. I can further grow in my relationship with God by uniting my suffering to his on the cross. I loved how Father Dave kept reiterating “All this for the King”. Our life is hard and we go through it in order to be with god in heaven at the end of it all.

Another major lesson I learned from hiking the Camino was that God has a specific path for you. Everyone that he puts on that path is there for a reason and god intends for you to learn something from that person. As I was reading, I thought about the people that God put in my life to teach me lessons. I started to laugh because it hit me that God has this huge master plan that he is carrying out and when I look back on the lessons I have learned, I can see that I learned them due to different experiences I had with people. I am excited to see what I will learn and how I will grow in my relationship with God when I relate to the people God puts in my path.

As I move forward after reading this book, it is time for me to make some changes in my life. To start I need to put God first. I don’t get to choose my cross or my path. It is all up to god. I need to put God first and trust in his will. I need to pray more and I need to change my prayer. Instead of asking God to change the things I cannot change, I need to ask god to change my attitude and how I handle situations. I remember at the campus ministry retreat when I was the last one left in the maze. I don’t need to go this walk alone and there is no shame in asking god to help along this road. God can be my anchor when everything else seems to be going wrong. God can be my friend when I feel alone. God can be my guide through college and the crazy teenage experiences. In the end all I have to do is ask for his help and wisdom and he will help me through. Now that is not saying that everything will be easy. Following god is one of the hardest paths to follow, but the outcome is the best thing in the universe. Now when I ask God for help, I can’t just take it and forget about him until I need help again. A relationship with God needs work every single day. I need to work with him and thank him for all that he does for me and thank him for my suffering because in the end it brings me closer to him. What I didn’t realize before this book was that suffering is a blessing and I just need to be willing to except and thank God for these blessings.